comfort

Today, I needed to treat myself with comfort. It was such a strong message. After I nearly passed out during Stength Training, doing a simple side bend. I nearly passed out.  I nearly threw up. And then the wave of emotion came.  So much grief. My day today, to listen to what I need - comfort.

I have a tendency to sit for many hours and not move.  I can be stagnant. My energy becomes stagnant. This experimental pilgrimage is all about the exploration of energy. My body is more energy than it is matter. I notice I sit in stagnation which keeps the energy of my body moving. An important part of that is my emotional body. When I move my body, the energy of stuck emotions can begin to move as well.  I know this. I am trained in this. I completely forget that I do.

I have a music playlist I started building about a year ago called "Peace, etc." It has become my pandemic playlist, to envoke the feelings I would like to be living, day to day during the pandemic. I keep adding to it. It is now a day long. 

Today, in an effort to move my energy, and to give myself comfort, I lay on the floor, with the playlist on, and allowed myself to move, in the most self comforting way I could in the moment.

It's funny how amnesiac I can be when practicing skills I know and teach others.

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